I have found my joy in acting again.
I remembered why I wanted to do it in the first place.
I was just about to give it all up, but this workshop has reminded me that I love this. That acting is simply part of me and my life and that it can be fun, cathartic, therapeutic, enlightening. That I can be as playful and joyful as I was when I was a child.
I feel more present, warm and embodied in my own body, less self-conscious and insecure and more – yeah well – present.
A weight was lifted from me through this workshop, a lot of pressure I have put onto myself and onto the craft.
I have come to realise that my entire life I have been striving towards perfection. Perfect grades, perfect body, perfect dance skills, perfect acting performance, perfect life.
But what makes me so special as a human and as an actress, is that I am imperfect. I have flaws and they make me and my performance interesting. That is what an Ai actor will never achieve. 😉
Also, I learned, that I can pour all my personal experiences into my performances, without revisiting traumatic events of the past, but rather use acting as an outlet for my emotions to come through and release. And through that reach catharsis.

Thank you so much for this incredible week!